I put on a shirt by Vera Wang and the chaos of colors reminded me that fall was coming. I am anticipating sweatshirt weather, pumpkins, and the changing of the leaves. Mostly I am just glad that August is almost over. The past two Augusts have been horrendous and I found myself looking for sickness or tragedy this year. So far so good with Tim. I even went to the doctors myself.. found out that I need glass and three wisdom teeth extractions. (ahhh)  We have seen Black Sabbath, Gone out a few times, and Tim finally got to go to his amx/amc car show that he has missed two years in a row. I laughed because there was only about 20 cars there and we only spent about an hour but it was just something he was able to do that he couldn't before so it was just a happy moment. I am looking forward to going to Silvercity for the truck show this year and see friends that we haven't seen in a while. It will be nice to get August out of my life for another year and move on with September. I've been working at the hospital at nights and Tim has been able to begin driving again so dropping me off and picking me up at work has been a huge achievement as well. I don't mind working at night because I have the entire day to relax and concentrate on other things besides the hospital. I love my job. The patients are wonderful and my Co-workers are so supportive and genuine to me but there is just no morale within our tiny department. Everyday I think of new ways that we can bring forth happiness within ourselves as a group but I am constantly shot down and its growing to be a huge disappointment. . I hope it changes and that we can find a cure to this unhappiness but until then I just clock in and do what I love the best and that is trying to put a smile on someone's face, and put them at ease during a very difficult time in their life. Nobody wants to be in a hospital setting so I try to make the most out of it by doing something nice for each and every patient that I encounter for the day. Insurance is not what I wanted to fall back to but the salary is nice and well... sometimes trying to advance in a career just doesn't work out because of politics.  I have been talking to a few of my Doctor friends for advice while I finish my degree because I know that I can make a greater impact somewhere in the hospital.. What I want to do is start doing patient advocate work and dealing with end stage renal disease patients while they transition into a dialysis program. I want to be a liaison for them while they go through a tough lifestyle change. I am thinking of creative ways that I can begin doing this and possibly on my free time donate my ideas to surrounding centers in hopes that someone will find me useful. Everyone tells me to write a book. But I like interacting with people and working with them not just writing down some useful advice. I'm stuck. September is about change. I am turning 28 this year and I have determination in my eyes. Its time to start back on track with my career and advancing my life for the better. Tim is holding it down and is in a much better place than 2011 2012 and 2013.. its time to make 2014 the year for me.