Failing Miserably.

I truly don't ever like to admit defeat but I am failing miserably with my goal of losing 80lbs by my wedding September 2013. It is now operation lose 85lbs because I have gained fivelbs since I started this crap. I am depressed and my clothes do not fit me anymore. I wish I could have a second surgery to lose the weight again but I don't have that option. I am not lazy.. I try to stay active and go to the gym as much as I can.. it is the food cravings. When I first had gastric bypass three years ago I could only eat a thumb size portion of food. three years later I am back to eating normal sized portions but on top of that my stomach digests food twice as fast as before.. so I am hungry twice as much as the normal person. It also doesn't help that I haven't been working an active job in quite some time. I hope all of this ends when I start work on Monday. I will be having a heavy position where I am forced to walk 8-10miles per day around the hospital. This should increase my workout and cardio so when I go to the gym at night I can work solely on strength training and toning. I hope that this will get me out of this weight gaining funk.. because I really do not like buying new clothes that are bigger sizes than 10... and it keeps happening.